Alright, I promised myself that I'd be honest with you guys. I have GAINED weight! I am 240 lbs. I can't believe it, I am working out way more than usual, and I thought I was eating less, apparently not. I need to start a food journal to keep track of when I eat, I'm also going to write down why I'm eating so I can cut back on emotional eating. Vegas coming up does not help. Does anyone else have any suggestions that will help. Or heck, even any stories to share so I don't feel like the only one :(

Last night my little boy's hamster passed away, and I wasn't there to comfort him. I had to be at work and Gabe took care of the funeral and tears. I am not envious of that, but at the same time I am. It's a huge phase in my little boy's life and I missed it. Gabe then took Austin out to get a new, hairier hamster :) his name is Gizmo. I feel like between work and school I am missing so much at home, I know I get to see them on the weekend, but it seems like a huge piece of me is at home all the time, and I can't be there. Oh well, one day it will be worth it, right?

I have lost another pound!! Not the five I wanted this week, but anything is better than nothing (or gaining) :) Back in my class, this class is lengthy and boring. He gave us an assignment, I did it because it was due today at 10 A.M. and now he's telling us we have until 10:20, I've already turned it in! What am I supposed to do for 20 minutes?? I guess look online for shoes and tweet and blog. Argh, at least I'm having lunch with Gabe.

 It's my sister's birthday, she's 40! I can't believe it! She really doesn't look it though. However it means that I'm another day closer to 30, I don't know why but I'm not thrilled. I am thrilled that I have lost 4 pounds this week! I weigh myself every Monday and this one was definitely better than the last. I have also recruited Austin as my little trainer (his words, not mine) and he is taking it very seriously! He likes to exercise and eat well so he's a great 7 year old influence. Lipozene is seeming to be pretty helpful too. :)

 On a different note I am in a weird rut when it comes to school and work, you know how you can get into something and it's cool and new, then the newness wears off and you just want a break (kind of like the last couple of months of your senior year)? I am there with school and work, I just don't have a lot of time, and I'm having a hard time caring. It's only taken me 4 years, but college is getting old. I just see the fact that I have at least 2 years left, hopefully Vegas will help. 

Sorry I haven't posted in a while (seems like a long time). I did not lose the 5 lbs by last Monday, I can say that it is partly because I'm a female and that's as far as I will go. I have had a pretty good week though, I started taking Lipozene and it seems to be working alright, it makes me so I'm not hungry. It's good, but I just started this week so nothing has happened yet. I did go to the gym 3 times this week and walk/jog 3 miles each time and I made it a couple of nights without eating anything after 8. That's what gets me, I need to work on my emotional eating and eating because of habit. I can do this! Vegas is coming up baby :) I was looking at pictures last night trying to find a cute baby one to take to my work for a contest and I got lost in memory lane. I consider myself a pretty cute girl, but I used to be a skinny, cute girl and it made me realize that I never fully appreciated my body back then, I was self-conscious and hid behind baggy clothes and long hair. How is it that we never appreciate our youth?? I'm still young I can change it and enjoy my 30's still, I won't take it for granted it anymore. Who's with me?